Beaus Mum ((hugs)) OH is keeping an eye on me and will call our very good GPs if he is concerned. Pneumonia is a real risk - my younger bro had it a couple of years ago and it has had longtime term effects for him.
Sweet dreams all
Gardening in Central Norfolk on improved gritty moraine over chalk ... free-draining.
Just a pop in to say hello. Not too good at the moment but I am getting help. A friend is dragging me to the doctors tomorrow, not sure what he can do to help me, a man who can unpack French bureaucracy would be more useful but she is adamant I need to see someone.
Unfortunately and embarrassingly, and I don't know why I am telling you all this, I ended up in a heap in a lay-by last night just wanting to curl up and die. It wasn't a suicide attempt or anything silly like that, just over-tired, stressed out and hugely disappointed about lack of progress. Ex OH had done a particularly neat job of coercing me into agreeing to something I don't want to do earlier and I felt totally stupid for being ambushed like that and stressed about how to get out of it. I had driven a very long way to a meeting with someone who had told me she had lots of help to offer in terms of getting grants and start up loans for my business and in actual fact managed to tell me nothing I didn't already know and I had to pay100€ for the privilege, so felt pretty stupid over that. It was cold, it was late, I didn't want to go home to an empty house, I was crying so much I couldn't see, everything was buzzing around and around in my head so I just pulled off the road and had a complete breakdown in the dark. Totally stupid and unnecessary. Hopefully my lowest point, it can surely only get better now.
This morning I searched for help online to get through the day and managed to deal with three major issues (major to me) by noon. I've still not dealt with OH, I'm not ready for that yet. I suppose making the appointment with the GP could be classed as another achievement, I am so resistant to the idea but I did sort of realise that everyone who I've talked to about the situation has given the same advice. see a doctor, and I am not totally stupid, honest, so when it's obvious I am the only one that thinks it's a bad idea I could perhaps be wrong. I absolutely hate the idea of any drugs or 'happy pills', so still not convinced he can make any difference but I will go.
One silly thing that gave me hope though was an article I read on the BBC news about a lady named the 'muesli queen' a self made business woman, her story is very inspiring and she has overcome all sorts of obstacles- hopefully one day soon all this will be a distant memory. Sorry to burden you all, thanks for all the kind comments and best wishes sent too. I am a bit afraid of looking like I am just attention seeking but you are so very kind and supportive and the sort of anonymous, virtual world we are in here feels very 'safe' to open up in.
I managed a short read back but it's a bit hard to focus. I do send you all my best wishes, especially poorly people and I hope I am back on track soon and up to joining in the banter.
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DD - there is medication to help you cope with the stress. You are doing the best thing in going to see your GP. Look on any medication prescribed as a "crutch". . . . . If you had a broken leg you wouldn't say"No" to using it.
Sorry that ex is being manipulative. hope you are soon fit enough emotionally to deal with him.
Oh Jacqui, how I feel for you. If I weren't in England with a horrid virus I could have come and picked you up. When I'm back and well, if you feel like that and don't want to be in an empty house please give me a ring.
Dordogne and Norfolk. Clay in Dordogne, sandy in Norfolk.
Get some rest DD then do something positive tomorrow - whether it's seeing the Dr or just making an awesome sandwich. Sounds like you have a good friend in your life - that's a special thing.
Snow watch: mainly the North, and down to Wales and South West England - probably Thursday.
DD - don't be afraid to take something from the doctor. It was the smartest thing I did when my husband walked out, and I'm glad I took my sister's advice and did it. I had two young children to take care of, whose world had also been turned upside down, and it helped me get out of bed and function until I was able to sort myselfout without them.
PM on it's way to you xxx
It's a place where beautiful isn't enough of a word....
I live in west central Scotland - not where that photo is...
DD, I don't have direct experience of medication for your situation but clearly others here do. You are in no way a failure if you need such help to get you through a bad patch. The doc might also recommend "talking therapy" or Cognitive Behavioural Therapy, which certainly helped my OH. Very best wishes to you and Charlie.
Since 2019 I've lived in east Clare, in the west of Ireland.
DD: please please look after yourself. I was on anti depressants for a while. They took the edge off things just enough to get stuff done. They gave me the clarity to think andnot rush in to things.
They're no different to taking anti biotics for a stubborn infection.
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Beaus Mum ((hugs)) OH is keeping an eye on me and will call our very good GPs if he is concerned. Pneumonia is a real risk - my younger bro had it a couple of years ago and it has had longtime term effects for him.
Sweet dreams all
Gardening in Central Norfolk on improved gritty moraine over chalk ... free-draining.
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hope you get arestful nights sleep and I hope everyone feels better in the morning!
Evening all,
Just a pop in to say hello. Not too good at the moment but I am getting help. A friend is dragging me to the doctors tomorrow, not sure what he can do to help me, a man who can unpack French bureaucracy would be more useful but she is adamant I need to see someone.
Unfortunately and embarrassingly, and I don't know why I am telling you all this, I ended up in a heap in a lay-by last night just wanting to curl up and die. It wasn't a suicide attempt or anything silly like that, just over-tired, stressed out and hugely disappointed about lack of progress. Ex OH had done a particularly neat job of coercing me into agreeing to something I don't want to do earlier and I felt totally stupid for being ambushed like that and stressed about how to get out of it. I had driven a very long way to a meeting with someone who had told me she had lots of help to offer in terms of getting grants and start up loans for my business and in actual fact managed to tell me nothing I didn't already know and I had to pay100€ for the privilege, so felt pretty stupid over that. It was cold, it was late, I didn't want to go home to an empty house, I was crying so much I couldn't see, everything was buzzing around and around in my head so I just pulled off the road and had a complete breakdown in the dark. Totally stupid and unnecessary. Hopefully my lowest point, it can surely only get better now.
This morning I searched for help online to get through the day and managed to deal with three major issues (major to me) by noon. I've still not dealt with OH, I'm not ready for that yet. I suppose making the appointment with the GP could be classed as another achievement, I am so resistant to the idea but I did sort of realise that everyone who I've talked to about the situation has given the same advice. see a doctor, and I am not totally stupid, honest, so when it's obvious I am the only one that thinks it's a bad idea I could perhaps be wrong. I absolutely hate the idea of any drugs or 'happy pills', so still not convinced he can make any difference but I will go.
One silly thing that gave me hope though was an article I read on the BBC news about a lady named the 'muesli queen' a self made business woman, her story is very inspiring and she has overcome all sorts of obstacles- hopefully one day soon all this will be a distant memory. Sorry to burden you all, thanks for all the kind comments and best wishes sent too. I am a bit afraid of looking like I am just attention seeking but you are so very kind and supportive and the sort of anonymous, virtual world we are in here feels very 'safe' to open up in.
I managed a short read back but it's a bit hard to focus. I do send you all my best wishes, especially poorly people and I hope I am back on track soon and up to joining in the banter.
DD - there is medication to help you cope with the stress. You are doing the best thing in going to see your GP. Look on any medication prescribed as a "crutch". . . . . If you had a broken leg you wouldn't say"No" to using it.
Sorry that ex is being manipulative. hope you are soon fit enough emotionally to deal with him.
Don't belittle "happy pills" DD, no shame and life savers to many people. Just ensure you get the correct ones for you.
Oh Jacqui, how I feel for you. If I weren't in England with a horrid virus I could have come and picked you up. When I'm back and well, if you feel like that and don't want to be in an empty house please give me a ring.
Get some rest DD then do something positive tomorrow - whether it's seeing the Dr or just making an awesome sandwich. Sounds like you have a good friend in your life - that's a special thing.
Snow watch: mainly the North, and down to Wales and South West England - probably Thursday.
DD - don't be afraid to take something from the doctor. It was the smartest thing I did when my husband walked out, and I'm glad I took my sister's advice and did it. I had two young children to take care of, whose world had also been turned upside down, and it helped me get out of bed and function until I was able to sort myselfout without them.
PM on it's way to you xxx
I live in west central Scotland - not where that photo is...
DD, I don't have direct experience of medication for your situation but clearly others here do. You are in no way a failure if you need such help to get you through a bad patch. The doc might also recommend "talking therapy" or Cognitive Behavioural Therapy, which certainly helped my OH. Very best wishes to you and Charlie.
DD: please please look after yourself. I was on anti depressants for a while. They took the edge off things just enough to get stuff done. They gave me the clarity to think andnot rush in to things.
They're no different to taking anti biotics for a stubborn infection.